After a few weeks of dealing with burnout and organizing the studio, I am hoping to get back into creation mode. Its’s sometimes a struggle to force myself to make something. It’s tough to keep going sometimes. I swear I want to get back to the comic strips, as I know the fans that follow this page probably prefer that type of post. However, I have so many projects started, I feel I need to get one or two done first.
I did finish writing my first novel, but few sales are discouraging. I’m not the best at promotion and advertising costs more than I have and I don’t really know the best ways to make ads to begin with. I am more a creator and will stay that way. I hope that some of the folks here also read books, and will want to hear more about mine.
I want to get more work done on book 2 of my novel series. I want to get this comic book done and get some paintings finished but I also don’t want it to be for nothing. I will have to figure some way to sell stuff. I could try patreon and post more often, but I feel sometimes that social media is a waste of time with little return. I do like to scroll through and soak in the creations of others though.
Maybe someone will happen to be interested in sci-fi books and want to hear about someone with bipolar disorder deal with something amazing, because that is what my novel is about. I put a lot of time and effort into it and I hope it was not just a waste of time. I like to write. I like to draw and paint but socializing and promotion are not my strong suits. Hopefully I will be able to figure something out. Burnout is a real thing and tough to deal with. I want to get so much done, but just feel overwhelmed by the huge daunting projects before me. Trust me, I still want to get back to the comic strips. I just need time to work out the other things I’m creating.
Some days, I just don’t feel up to it. Whatever it is. I need time to veg out and relax or watch some tv or youtube or just read or listen to music. It is just part of the process now. You can’t keep emptying the creative well without taking some time to fill it up with some inspiration. I need time to relax some days, whether due to depression, fatigue, or just plain not feeling it. Burnout is a real thing and takes its toll when you least want it to.
Today is one of them days. I just don’t feel it. I want to get stuff done and it feels like I am having more slow days than fast days, but I need to take the time to soak up some inspiration. Even though there are multiple projects that need to be developed, mental health doesn’t follow a schedule or routine.
I’ve been overwhelmed with too many projects and not knowing how to get them all done when I want to get them done. Another thing that is difficult is not getting the results I think the work deserves. No matter how good I could be at creating, without some experience selling or advertising or being social, the work won’t get out there.
I’ve been low on contact for a while, creating the things that I wanted to, making the stuff I love to make. But I just don’t have the social skills to put the work out there the way it needs and deserves. I put so much time and effort into this stuff, I sometimes wonder why I keep going.
Social media is tough to figure out. I wish there were an easy way to figure out how to get the outcome that so many seem able to produce. That golden ticket hanging above my head of overnight success or of going viral or of whatever, that draws so many people to the internet is elusive at best. So many people are working at the same end goal of wealth, fame, and success it waters out every honest attempt to make something worthwhile.
I want to get this comic book done and move on to the next project, but I feel called to paint or to write or to play some guitar or maybe just write this blog post.
Please check out my most recent finished project, my novel, The Prime Meroidial Collective Book One: Bradley’s Dream available only on Amazon